"If I could give you anything right now, I would give you a candle that burns as brightly as the light within you, the light you are... I would say don't let the well-intentioned extinguish it. Don't let the mean-spirited blow it out. Don't let your light flicker and fade on days that you feel like giving up. The world is large and no one can illuminate it alone, but it is amazing how a single candle can light so many others. The world needs your light. Hold your candle high." -Cheryl Hawkinson This poem was a huge reminder to me. Isn't it true that one person can make a great difference. I think for myself, I am too easily swayed by what others say and my fear of what they think also have an enormous effect on my decisions. I don't want my life to be dictated by others, I want the only one who has an effect on anything I do to be God. And I want Him to effect everything I do. I want Him to be my reason, my only reason....every thought, every word, every step, every smile, every laugh, every song, every picture, every breath; everything. I could go on and on, and those who know me would agree:P. I love the Lord I serve....I am a daughter of the King and Creator of the universe! I need to be reminded of that. It's late and I've had a crazy week, and a great day... Praising and learning to trust Him completely, Keerst Psalm 8 (my fav!)

Broken...

I have been learning a lot lately what it means to trust in the Lord. I thought that I pretty much had that down pat...(how naive can one be!?!), but obviously I have a lot to learn. Today, I find myself as a college student with no summer job to pay off loans, no idea of what I'm going to do, and no idea of what I want at all. There is so much more to this, but this is about all that I can put into words at the moment. Though I am fragile in this time, I take great comfort in knowing that God is providing for me. Already, He has provided me with a friend to talk with, pray with, and even cry with. I am truly humbled by His endless love and compassion. This is where I sit, eyes sore from crying (for the first time since the summer), soul tired of trying to do things on my own for too long; I'm learning to trust the One who's got it all under control. As I was drifting off to sleep the other night He said "Relax Keerst. It's ok, I've got it under control. I know what I'm doing. I've got it." It meant so much to me, and it still does; but now I have no choice but to trust Him, no excuse not to, and even if I wanted to, I have nowhere else to go. Though it is hard, I am glad that I am where I am now. And I know that I am going to be ok; I just need to let Him take control.