Broken...

I have been learning a lot lately what it means to trust in the Lord. I thought that I pretty much had that down pat...(how naive can one be!?!), but obviously I have a lot to learn. Today, I find myself as a college student with no summer job to pay off loans, no idea of what I'm going to do, and no idea of what I want at all. There is so much more to this, but this is about all that I can put into words at the moment. Though I am fragile in this time, I take great comfort in knowing that God is providing for me. Already, He has provided me with a friend to talk with, pray with, and even cry with. I am truly humbled by His endless love and compassion. This is where I sit, eyes sore from crying (for the first time since the summer), soul tired of trying to do things on my own for too long; I'm learning to trust the One who's got it all under control. As I was drifting off to sleep the other night He said "Relax Keerst. It's ok, I've got it under control. I know what I'm doing. I've got it." It meant so much to me, and it still does; but now I have no choice but to trust Him, no excuse not to, and even if I wanted to, I have nowhere else to go. Though it is hard, I am glad that I am where I am now. And I know that I am going to be ok; I just need to let Him take control.